I grew up with a yearning to please others. In drivenness and striving, I desired to please parents, teachers, and friends. The spirit of competition joined me to include a desire to please talent and beauty judges. What appeared as innocent child’s play fed that competitive spirit. The parade of people to please grew as did my drivenness and striving to perform perfectly, with excellence and without flaw to make those around me happy! I grew up in a Christian family and was the daughter of a minister. I knew God. I thought this was all God’s plan for me and that He was pleased with my performance. I continued to set the bar higher and higher worldly standards of excellence into college and marriage.
Until I world would eventually implode with a mighty storm that shook and rattled every belief I held as truth.
From the rubble, the enemy joined me with bulimia, hypothyroidism, GERD, then complete exhaustion, followed by allergies to everything in my environment, anxiety with panic attacks, and an oppressive depression. Somewhere along this road, divorce, two miscarriages, disappointment, and unfulfilled desires led to deep heartache.
Striving for perfection and driven to make others happy eventually became my prison. I became so sick; I could not leave my bedroom without goggles and a mask. MCS/EI was the diagnosis from one of five doctors that I would visit and count on to heal me. Another diagnosis, GAD and yet another diagnosis, severe toxicity. Another doctor suggested hormone replacement with heavy doses of sleep medicines to treat insomnia. The last doctor prescribed oxygen and chelation therapy along with extreme dietary restrictions. Eventually all my doctors said, “We have done all we can do for you.” Recovery seemed impossible. My husband felt helpless as he watched me downward spiral. I could not please anyone any longer. My worth and value were gone. Knowing that I could not intentionally end my own life, I cried out to God to end this storm.
All the treatments and medications resulted in a loss of two-thirds of my hair, swollen face and body, 25% loss of body mass, and most devastating – loss of hope for my future. Destructive beliefs of “this all a part of God’s plan”, this is “His desire for me” to live out my days in this condition, and believing “it was all my fault” were prevailing…
Until my husband prayed a prayer that would lead to a way out! I am here today as a whole and healed person because of that prayer! My victory started the night my husband would bang on the gates of heaven for my deliverance. God responded to him in a subtle voice… “I’ve got this!” In great peace my husband knew it was time to take action. Through our prayer warriors and the direction of my Christian counselor, God pointed us to a place in Thomaston, Georgia that was known for success in bringing healing to people with my condition. But it would require a great deal of faith to get there. I had to make a decision to trust God with my health to board a plane, rent a car, and stay in a hotel to receive my healing. This was not normally what I could do in my daily living. The enemy assaulted us with fear and anxiety concerning the trip and time away. However, together we overcame this by believing God for His promises. My husband and I both wanted God’s help so desperately that we decided to put God first and let Him handle our circumstances.
When it came time, I put one foot in front of the other and personalized favorite scriptures with every step. First, 3 John 2 – I knew God wanted my soul to be healed! Then Ephesians 6:12, I was up against an invisible enemy that Jesus destroyed. Then 2 Timothy 1:7 God does not want me to be afraid because “He’s got this”.
Through Be In Health, I attended For My Life in January of 2018. I knew God was with me in all that I was being taught by the staff and teachers of Be In Health. As I was learning revolutionary teachings and scriptures, I was undergoing deep healing. The love of God was unmistakable as the teachers, volunteers and staff showed us all God’s mercy and accepted us as who we were. They were all so encouraging. I was re-baptized into the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit in Jesus name and gave my testimony of how I was now going to live life for the Lord. I could feel my body beginning the healing process it needed, starting with my mind, my heart followed. Healing and freedom were happening much quicker than my husband or I expected. I was hungry for the teachings and decided to stay for WOW week, no matter the consequences. I trusted God to handle what I could not -my family at home and the resources we needed. I was learning to let go.
After For My Life and WOW week, I had the teachings and the walk-out strategies. I knew I was ready to handle going home: as a whole person and as a child of God. There were weeks of trusting God to carry me through the temptations that would try to overtake me, but they did not prevail. As I was battling fear, more layers of me were being healed. I was regaining so much lost ground, I could finally enjoy my family and friends again and go back to church without the lie of needing my googles and mask for protection. 1 John 4:4 He that is in me is greater than he who is (or whatever I might face) in this world. Having the understanding of warfare weapons and the power of God’s word from Be In Health teachings, I was empowered to walk out and take back more of my life each day.
As a family, we enjoy the fruit of this process: God healed my son of grand mal febrile seizures, extensive food allergies, and is walking out of PTSD. My husband has been delivered and free from fear, stress, and anxiety and is no longer afraid for our future. I wake up each day and say, “Thank you Father for my second chance!” My husband is grateful to “have his wife back!” These victories came to us rapidly once we applied the Be In Health teachings with our faith. We thank Be In Health for their tireless sacrifices in order to help others like us to be free!
Eight months later, I have new levels of health and freedom! I can go encourage others with God’s message! I am renewing my mind daily and rebuilding my body with God’s word. We are overcomers because Jesus did the work for us. I have victory in Jesus name! I can go anywhere, eat anything, run, exercise, swim and engage in the world with the peace of knowing God loves me and will take care of me. God’s “Got this!” We are here to encourage you… You can do this in your journey of freedom, God will meet you.